Continuing on with the theme of the last post, and how we present an image through our blogs and our curated photos on Instagram, this post is taking the title two ways. The thing is, I often think of my mother and her health issues, which were mainly centred around depression, which got worse as she got older. Me, I don’t get depressed, but I do get anxious about this and that, and all sorts really, which my mother did also. Yes, I spent most of my youth trying not to be like my mother – you know how teenagers are – and yet I see my mother in my self more and more, and especially as I age. Not only do I look in the mirror and see my mother looking back, I now understand her far more than I ever did, because of the way I feel. Because today I’ve been giving myself a good talking-to as I’m getting really jumpy and nervy about going up to London. You’d think, what! Why? I dunno, I just am. And truly there is no reason under the sun to get like this, but I do, I am, just as I have done in the past, and now here I am today, talking away to myself trying to quieten that inner voice that’s saying so much negative stuff.
But having been a nurse who specialised in psychiatric nursing (years ago, of course!) I also note to myself that my feelings of anxiety are very, very minor. This is a first-world person worrying about an outing, ffs! So, to conclude these, oh, so glam pics that we all present (well, we aim but don’t always succeed!) do not always depict what lies beneath. And, actually, that’s why I love older bloggers like, for example, Catherine of Atypical60 who is so very much her own person saying how it is. Anyway, to encourage myself away from the anxiety I’m feeling I’m putting up the pictures of the fab outfit that I wore under the thrifted black coat.
And what was under the coat?
Ok, it’s got a very slight tear in the hem which I’m going to stitch right now.
But what an amazing skirt! The material is so stiff it could stand on the floor by itself.
I’m so not good with shoes. I might wear these little shoes, or the plainer ones? Or what about my new little boots? Don’t ask me to wear heels – not with my ankles and high insteps, I’d just fall over! I’ll make up my mind tomorrow.
Can I also say, and returning to Catherine of Atypical60, I’m being my own stylist here. Yes, I decided that the brown outfit, which featured a couple of weeks back, was just too safe and boring. Also someone said, they thought I was dressing more conservatively since I moved to Brighton. OMG, what! I hope not! Here is my attempt to be the absolute opposite of conservative and tame! And I feel better already looking at the bright red of the skirt – it’s so in-your-face!
I’m off now to put a stitch in the skirt. And I’ll attempt to take lots of photos in London.
Penny, the Frugalfashionshopper
P.S. If you’ve got any thoughts about the shoes before midday Friday……